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This Moment Right Now
From my well-intentioned mother and older sister, from the sanctimonious veteran moms I encounter in person and online, and even from strangers in restaurants and checkout lines. Over and over again I hear, “Enjoy this moment because it won’t last.” And it aggravates me every single time.
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It’s Not About Your Kitchen Sink
When I was a brand new mother trying to navigate a world ruled by feedings, diaper changes, and growth spurts, I felt like I was drowning. Deep down I believed there was some secret, some formula, some checklist that I hadn’t yet gotten my hands on. Once found, it would make this mothering thing a…
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A Tablespoon of Peanut Butter Reduced Me to Tears…. Surviving Anorexia
The moment a tablespoon of peanut butter reduced me to tears is etched permanently into my memory. My heart raced and tears streamed down my face. I stared at that peanut butter and was paralyzed with anxiety. Time stood still while that single serving tub of peanut butter taunted me from the cold sterile table.
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What an Enormous Crashing Tree Reminded Me about Anxiety
And this is how anxiety works. I start to jump ahead into the future and all of the possible ways things could go wrong. And they are infinite really. There are so many things that could happen in any given minute. Too many to even predict. Anxiety tells me: I must try to predict every…
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The First Day
My eyes popped open and I was instantly filled with anticipation. Still dark outside, I reached for my phone to check the time. 4:55 am. I knew I was awake for the day. It was not any ordinary day. This was the first day of preschool for my youngest son. I have been waiting for…
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My Friend Beth
When I found out my friend Beth passed away, I was heartbroken. She was more than a music teacher. She was a dear friend who loved all three of my boys from the time they were itty bitty. She instilled a love of piano in Teddy while she instilled a love of life in me.…
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Daffodils
Daffodils used to make me cry. I couldn’t walk past one without my throat tightening and my heart sinking into my stomach. The yellow tips of petals peeking out through the winter grass brought salty tears to my eyes. Every. Single. Time. To me, they were not a sign that spring was on it’s way.…
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Lessons from a 3rd Grade Bingo Game
This week I was able to volunteer at my oldest son’s school holiday party. While I am extremely grateful I get to be a stay-at-home mom, I sometimes miss my days working in mental health with children and adolescents. I loved my job as an elementary school counselor and third grade was always my favorite…
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GI-Hanks
I have always loved holidays and having children makes them even more fun. What is more fun than dressing up in a hilarious costume? Dressing up your little child in one! What is more fun than decorating? Seeing your children’s faces light up when you pull out the decorations. For me, holidays with children are…
